With the New Year's holiday coming up (or, at this point, upon us), I've been looking back over 2011. I've been thinking about everything I experienced, and the lessons learned. Magically and mundanely, 2011 has been very...contrasted. I'll show you what I mean:
...I hated 2011. It's been another one of the worst years of my life. If it were a person, I would shoot it in the crotch with a double-barrelled shotgun, douse it in gas as it's squirming in agony and set it on fire. I would sit in a lawn chair as it burned and sip a fucking cocktail. Then, I would bury it right next to 2010...in a shallow grave with salted earth.
Sounds quite severe, huh?
See, 2011 was one of those years, for me. I haven't really been able to catch a break. Things I have done to better my situation have been fouled at every turn. I lived in a bad situation that fulfilled my fear about ever becoming roommates with a friend. Even when things did get better, there has always been something there to ruin it for me and keep me miserable, whether that was something in my own head or outside of me. The forces of Jupiter have helped reverse that a lot, but even then I've still been in an in-between place. I've been constantly broke and, due to internal and external factors, have been knocked on my ass every single time I tried to catch things up.
My magical efforts to turn things around have been effective, don't get me wrong. But it's been like plugging up leaks in a ship, with a new leak springing up for every one you stop. I've been working hard, mundanely and magically, and it has been paying off. Proverbially plugging the leaks just a little fast than they spring up has been working...just slowly.
All the above makes me wonder about my uncrossing and how effective it was. I'm going to have to do some divination to explore that.
But anyway, the good news is that I'm in a better position now. If I can keep things going well at my job, it's only a matter of months before I'm back on steady ground again.
...I have loved this year! The Strategic Sorcery course, the angelic initiations I've gained, and all the people I've met/interacted with/learned from this year have been absolutely amazing! I started this blog, and it's been a major boon to my life. I've been busier and busier with magical work, and have become much more effective than I have ever been since riding the n00b wave back when I started dis shit back in 1997.
My magical efforts helped me quite a bit this year during some really rough times, even though it often seemed like trying to stop something that was nearly unstoppable. See my leaky ship metaphor above.
I had some really interesting experiences. My interactions with the archangels of the elemental and planetary spheres, for one. I solidly got my feet wet with evocation.
Through working with Robert Bruce's techniques, and Inominandum's overal procedure...I experienced astral projection in a new, interesting, and vivid way.
Talismans! I learned a much better way of making and empowering talismans than doing the Golden Dawn Neophyte ceremony over them.
I could go on and on, and maybe I'll make an upcoming post where I illustrate my own Tech Tree (a la TGB's post here), but for now I'll just say this:
I'm letting the hellishness of 2011 go. I'm taking the lessons and benefits, and moving on now. I've been dwelling on this year and how sucky it's been in so many ways...but it's time to give that up and move forward. I've got the rest of my life to look forward to, and work to do. I'm gonna do it like a boss and I'm going to thrive.
So mote it be.