I decided to conjure Raphael tonight and seek from him initiation into the elemental sphere of air, as well integration of its forces into my own personal sphere.
I mean, what the hell, right???
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Initially it really surprised me when he refused. I thought my perceptions were failing again and so I repeated the question two more times, taking measures to open my senses more in between. But each time, the answer was "No". After asking him to explain, it went something like this:
"You are not ready for this particular initiation. The weakest element represented in your personality is fire, and most of those traits present are of a negative/unhealthy fiery nature at this time. Chief among them is a lot of anger. Integrating elemental air at this time would be like fanning the flames and it could send those negative fiery traits exploding out of control. Think air fanning fire, causing water to boil. Work on strengthening those fiery traits that are more positive and would contribute something healthy to your life, like passion and creativity, drive and motivation. Check back with me regularly while working on this, as it may not be as long as you think before you are ready."
There is a type of elemental meditation taught by Jason in Strategic Sorcery that can help integrate the forces of the elements into one's sphere. I asked Raphael, with slight defiance, about the possibility of doing such a meditation on elemental air. His response was simply, "Don't."
At that point I asked Raphael about conjuring Michael of elemental fire to assist with balancing that element within my personality. He stated that it is a valid possibility and worth pursuing. He also mentioned a couple of times that I should consult my Genius concerning these things.
So, I guess I have my work cut out for me.
In other news, I know I've been quiet lately, and that's because I've been planning some magical projects. Top among them is a cash box. I'm working on the design and figuring out how I'm going to work it (in terms of the actual painting, carving, etc.).